I had such a long day today.
I set 45 showings (which is INSANE, for those of you playing the home game), had two meetings averaging 45 minutes a piece, did two agendas, outlined fifteen MC strategies for growth, retention, and education, AND managed to knock out a fair amount of my homework. Not enough that I'm not still staring down the barrel of tons of homework tonight and tomorrow, but a lot just the same.
Anali had a major closing a week ago, so she bought lunch for everyone today. I had a grilled chicken sandwich sans anything delicious (not that grilled chicken isn't super tasty, but minus mayo and things of that ilk, it's a bit bland) and steamed broccoli. Tosh and I were supposed to go to lunch together, but we pushed it off until tomorrow.
I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed today. I'm having a weird panic moment, and I'm telling myself that there's no way I can be successful at getting my degree (oh. Because I talked to my adviser and put myself on the fast track to get my bachelor's degree in two years. Two), and I'm not smart enough for this, and I am probably the laughing stock of everyone for even trying. I don't know what's going on. I know this isn't the case. I know that I'm fucking determined, and when I want something, I will destroy anything that gets in my way to get it. I do what needs to be done. It's one of my four redeeming qualities. I just feel oddly scared and unsure of myself right now.
Perhaps burying myself in homework will help.
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